Zeydaan's well on her way into becoming Grey, taking a moment to herself, on the cusp of the point of no return.
"You're a monster, why on earth would you keep going with this illusion that you as you are can do anything that would help others. You've seen the monster you can be, what makes you so different? How can you tell that you won't one day become it... Just give it up... What good has that magic been for you anyway... What good has Zeydaan done"
NB: This isn't a cry for help or genuinely self deprecating, just imagining this version of Zey/Grey's thinking as they change.
Zeydaan Isabella
Grey Ryder